D’oRaNgE

I am aware that I’m nowhere near broken heart, thank GOD. However, I would like to talk about it. This kind of hurting feeling can only be obtained due to placing our hearts as a bet in relationship or just love but actually, it’s the only way that feels right… that’s how we can truly feel.

I have a friend who broke up with a guy she still really loves and we could see how hurt she is and it got me thinking how that hurting feeling could lead into so many possibilities.

Positive possibilities could be like the person is more focused on the education or career that he or she is able to get ahead.. all because they are desperate to move on or to drown themselves into something else so that they could forget their sorrow.

Negative possibilities could be like totally forgetting to eat. Well, this never happened to me my other friend once said to a broken-hearted friend of mine, “eat with your brain, not your heart”.. we just don’t want her to get sick. They could even find it difficult to love someone else. That’s really bad, ‘cause people do have to move on. Life goes on, yo!

Those are some outcomes of broken hearts.

But it’s not like I say all these stuff without actually having felt them before… well guess what? I have.

It’s funny tho’ now that I have been with someone whom I really love and loves me back, I’ve totally forgotten how it feels. I know it’s like hell but I totally forget how it feels. Now, I only feel hurt due to the difficulties in my relationship, but other than that.. life is awesome.

I can’t help but wonder… does heartaches would equal to great relationship with someone you actually love? Does karma play in romance? I think so… I mean, after all that I had to go through in the past, now that I have finally found someone that I could understand what love really is.. it’s not perfect, I know, but I’m in love with my boyfriend who loves me back so much, I just can’t complain.

I walked under a bus,

I got hit by a train,

Keep falling in love but it’s kinda the same

I’ve sunk at the sea,

Crashed my car and gone insane

It felt so good,

I wanna do it again

That part of a song used to be some sort of soundtrack of my love life [imagine how messed up it was], apparently giving up was not an option and I am glad that I could still love after all of those heartaches.. and look where it got me: a great boyfriend. I could not ask for more.

My suggestion is just to keep your heart open, someone better will come along, someone you truly deserve. After all, we can’t really swear off love, right?

I am in the mood for some catchy lyrics…

“Cause every time that we rendezvous

I don’t wanna go back home

And every time that I’m holding you

There ain’t no way to let you go

You’re shining down boy the game is through

I don’t wanna play no more

Cause the only one that I want is you

So tell me what you wanna do

because baby, I just can’t stay away”

(Anything - JoJo)

It’s obvious that I’m in love… and luckily in a relationship with that particular boy for more than a year.. this is amazing.

“you and i

just have a dream

to find our love

at place where we can hideaway

you and i

and we’re just made

to love each other now

forever anyday”

(U&I - scorpions)

Still in luph, huh? Hehehe, that’s right, folks just wanna be with him…

And sometimes that creates trouble.. why? Cuz things don’t always work out the way we want them to.. and it just makes me feel or even seem too selfish for a relationship. Gosh, I hate that feeling. So maybe, that’s the reason why I never had long-term relationships before. That and the fact that it’s so hard to make a relationship work with me.. yes, I am a difficult person and now that I have found the one who CAN stand me and my attitude, hell, I am so not letting go…