Well,I know I haven’t had updates on my blog since ages ago… and for those of you who know me, it’s a bit unusual. I get it. Actually, I don’t really have much time and for the first time I’m not in the mood to write. Hell I don’t know what’s going on with me. Maybe I’v been so caught up with other things. However, I think I’m gonna start writing again…and publish what I write. Anyway…here are the things I want to talk about. here we go…
MAkhluk hidup ituwh punya kemampuan beradaptasi. Manusia sebagai makhluk sosial juga punya kemampuan untuk beradaptasi dengan perubahan dalam lingkar sosial in which they participate. Anak2 Mahasiswa Baru butuh adaptasi and all sorts of adjustment with college life, be it subjects or new friends. Orang yang dulunyah single and then punya relationship juga menyesuaikan diri dengan relationship barunya ituwh. Orang yang pindah ke lingkungan baru juga butuh untuk menyesuaikan diri dengan orang2 lain yang ada di lingkungan baru ituwh. semuanya memang tampak cliche, tapi it’s not always that simple karena orang2 juga ternyata punya kemampuan beradaptasi yang berbeda-beda.. ada yang benar2 flexible, ada yang reluctant, dan ada yang resistant. My friend told me that she wanted to be more honest from now on and admitted that she’d had some kind of discussion with my other friend about me having a relationship. And then she apologized for talking about me behind my back, well… being a forgiving person that I am, of course I forgive her. And I do apreciate that she wanted to be honest with me. There’s no need to fuss, because I know I’m pretty open-minded myself.. and of course I always apreciate honesty. Well, they talked about this radical change that I have and my other friend didn’t seem to like it or whatever. Here’s the thing… of course things have changed. I am not single anymore, while they had always been used to having me around all the time and stayed single .. and had all the time in the world for them. Well, of course it’s not like that anymore. And it WILL NEVER BE LIKE THAT ANYMORE. Because my single life is over, and my adaptation is getting used to having a guy by my side and set aside time for him. While, my friendship is also important but I can’t stay single so that they don’t have to deal with anything that changes with my self. I just can’t do that. And I absolutely wouldn’t want to have to choose between my relationship and my friendship. Because both are important. I just hope that both sides would understand how much they ALL mean to me. I just hope that my friends could understand me but I am not hoping for too much because right now, my life is different. I am not that single girl who would dedicate her entire life to unromantic stuff anymore. Because I admit, I need that romance. And I need my friendship. I just wish that my friends would understand that I’m trying to juggle everything. I can still be thankful to my loving and supportive boyfriend and the very few friends who still understand me. anyway, It’s impossible to ask someone to really understand your situation if they have never actually been in the situation. Apalagi if they’re not open-minded, so shallow that they would only think that what they think is the only thing that’s right.
"we used to love one another, give to each other, lie undercover, are you friend or foe?" Sometimes, I still wonder… siapa yah yang bisa bener2 sy sebut teman? … but before I go on any further… I have to define what is a friend to me. Seorang teman *in my definition* adalah: - seseorang yang most of the time selalu ada when I need them dan merupakan orang2 yang jarang mengecewakankuwh, terus tentunya they are not backstabbers [alias:orang-orang yang suka "menusuk dari belakang"] - seorang teman ituwh tentunyah selalu bisa ngerti sama keadaan temannya. - A true friend can also tell the much-needed truth to their friends and would not cover so that they will always have a great image to their friends. - My true friends would also stand by me in any condition, they will stand behind my choice although they don’t agree with my choice. Always supportive, I might say. - They would honestly tell me if I’ve made bad decisions, misalnya kalo a certain outfit actually makes me look fatter than I already am, in subtle ways, of course… de el el.. yang jelas, seorang true friend nda bakalan menjerumuskan temannya sendiri so that kesalahan yang sebenarnya ada pada dirinyah tidak nampak. hm… I heard a few stories today and it really upset me because it upset someone that I consider my true friend… and all the drama that came with it. Sy cuma mo bilang, bahwa sometimes orang-orang yang kita anggap teman bisa menjadi orang-orang yang pull us down. We love them, but unfortunately mereka might not care about us the same way we care about them. So, what to do when things like that happen? Straighten things up and make sure that you’re not accusing someone for something that they never did. Tapi kalo ternyata mereka memang seperti ituwh, well there’s nothing you can do… but you CAN decide whether to stay CLOSE friends with them or not. It’s just that people -especiall girls- need to be careful with their feelings. It’s not always about boyfriends, sometimes what people whom you think are your friends can hurt you worse than any guy you date. So..just be careful, because it really is a jungle out there and it’s tough to decide who’s friend/foe. I just have to remember to be more careful who to share information to from now on…
Hm…where should I start? Well, in general Dimas and I are actually getting a lot closer than we’ve ever been. I don’t know if he feels that way too, but that’s how I feel. More and more in love, perhaps? I think so. However, relationship isn’t always about getting what you want but it’s also about compromising so that we won’t suffer from wanting too much. I admit that we argue a lot but I think we have reached the phase that we just gotta make this thing work better. We have figured out what we need to do, we need to be more patient in dealing with each other. It hasn’t been very easy because we both are so stubborn and a lot of times, selfish. Another thing that’s important is to accept each other as a normal human beings who make mistakes every so often. Anyway… this year I experienced a very romantic Valentine. I so won’t forget this Valentine. In my life, I don’t know why but I never had a romantic Valentine. I had one unforgettable Valentine’s day, but it wasn’t with a boyfriend. It was the day The Ames [my host parents] took me to the beach for a long weekend. We had dinner and relaxed. It was nice, though. However, this year my Valentine days were romantic. on the 13th, we cooked together and I got him a pillow to hug everynight along with my favorite pillow case, i wrote ten things I love about him on chocolate bars, I also burned him the dyGta Cd that he’d wanted. We also watched a movie at my house. The next day, he planned a surprise for me. It was very cute. He decorated my room with pink balloons and he got little candles and stick ‘em on the floor in the shape of a heart, and he put a rose and a huge Valentine card on my bed and since my room was dirty and messy, he cleaned it and arranged my stuff :). I got this surprise when I got home from college. I told him to come over to talk about the issues we had in our relationship, it turned out he’s been at my house well before I told him that I wanted to talk. When I walked into the house I could kinda smell him, but I thought it was just my imagination and when I walked into my room I was grinning non-stop. It was silly :P. I found him hiding in the room where my brother sleeps. I just couldn’t stop smiling. That was really sweet I love him!
For those of you who know me, know that I love writing so much. That I actually put my thoughts in writing. However, that hasn’t been the fact lately. I didn’t update my blog for a very long time. I wrote in my personal diary a little bit [this happened only because I had no one to talk to]. And then…reality hits: I’ve dreamed about publishing my own novel. I wrote a lot of fiction before and then I realized that I haven’t written anything for well over eight months. How am I ever gonna publish my own book if I don’t write that much anymore? I started writing when I was in Junior High!! Why stop now? Actually, I don’t want to stop…and then I realized that I used to write because I had so much free time and so much imagination. Now, I still have so much imagination but not so much free time. I mean, I was single and college assignments weren’t trying to kill me, I had all the free time a girl could ask for… now, I have a boyfriend and college stuff that is getting tougher. Well, I don’t regret about both. I love that things are changing in my life. That I actually have real romance and college stuff that keeps challenging me. However, it’s a shame that I have no time for this one hobby.
But, when I’ve come to think of it… I still write but not exactly write stuff that I desire. I do a lot of writings for the college assignments thingy, though…
ONe thing for sure, saya merasa bersyukur karena punya atau pernah punya hobi menulis because those writing assignments seem more doable and karena sy memang hobi nulis in english, I never have to worry about decreasing my English speaking/writing ability… that’s a blessing, right there.
I really want to write an interesting finished story. It doesn’t have to be published, it’s just something that I want to do for myself. I hope I have one this year. You know what, I just need to be inspired. I need some tangible inspiration for a plot…
